It’s funny how much stress you can be in and then all of a sudden it’s just completely lifted off.
I’m really happy right now.
I have my MacBook.
And I love it, even though I didn’t get the kind I want but at least I have one.

But I hate the Internet here.

Right now, I’m kind of lonely.
I don’t have anyone to talk to.
I don’t have anything to do.
I want a job but these damn dance practices put such a dampening on that.

I’m just really upset right now. 

I feel much better now.
Quite a bit.
I cut out the second dance, as much as I loved it. I couldn’t let my art go out like that. I worked extremely hard on it and it needed to be appreciated how I envisioned it and having 6 people if that would not do it justice.

I had a pretty good night. I’m glad I go out as much as I do now. I feel really good about myself and where I am with my friendships.

I also changed my major to a double major in French and Psychology with a minor in Chemistry.
I feel really good.

I’m very stressed right now. I just finished my first semester of college a week ago. My GPA isn’t that great. Like, it’s really disheartening how bad it is. I completely understand why it’s so bad. I didn’t come in to school thinking I would have to study for anything, and that’s exactly how I kept it. I didn’t study. I went to tests just hoping for the best, and fail after fail came. It’s not so much that I didn’t understand the material just that I wasn’t dedicated enough to actually put in work to do it correctly.
But honestly, I don’t think being a doctor is for me.
I’m capable of doing it but I don’t really think it’s for me. I feel like I’m too much of an artist and a free-spirit to be able to buckle down like that and take it as serious as it should be.
I’m really thinking French is where I should go. I honestly believe that.
It seems more suitable for who I am and what I want to achieve in life.
I don’t want to completely throw Chemistry out of the water but I feel like Calculus is going to definitely be a class that I’m not personally ready for and I don’t want that.
I just don’t really understand where I should be and what I should do honestly.